There were time that I felt like I needed to have a boyfriend in my life. When you’re in your thirties, you seem to think you’re running out of time if you don’t have any children, or you’re not married or you think who wants me, and then you end of choosing a man that treats you like a dog or disrespects and abuses you mentally & physically until you feel like I really don’t care any more. Maybe it’s me. I’m so glad I have a praying mother. Because all those times when I should have listened and I didn’t, I wanted to do my own thing. I really messed up my life. But my mom prayers that she sent up a long time ago and arrested me. I am reading the word of God and it is changing my life. I am going to church and learning how to worship God, and my decisions are starting to change about how I feel about life. God has given me so much love and His favor and grace is so amazing. All I can say is, it’s okay to focus on yourself until God sends that man of God into your life.. I am enough, I’m not inadequate because I don’t have a husband. I’m living my best life now! And if God sees fit to loan me to a man, that’ s good, if not, that’s still good. I am enough with the Lord on my side.